Tangible Help.

I really appreciate the tangible forms of help that has been offered by friends and co-labourers.

• Isaac offering to call all 39 people from our coach
• Xian helping with the research (eternally grateful!)
• John with Script 03
• Motivation of FOOD- Thankful for that Korean meal with the family. Though food is considered unimportant in such days, I am thankful for it still! Hope waffles and ice-cream comes to pass after this high tide.
• All the prayers- whether you think its tangible or not, it is an immense form of encouragement to me!

Days like these, it’s not that a ‘jiayou’ or ‘hang in there’ doesn’t help. It’s just that.. other stuff works better.

Thank God for His providence!! May I be able to love these people in other ways too!

*back to Essay 2 of 3*

Defense Mechanism.

Episodes recently have left me reflecting on how I react after feeling hurt or upset. And I am quite.. grossed out by how I counter the pain I face. I inflict pain on the person that hurt. I become very blunt in my words and unkind in my actions.

I am far from Christ-like. But I hope that I’m becoming more like Christ each day. I really need Your grace. Help me to be more gentle in my words and actions. Help me to counter hurt with patience, gentleness and love.

Sorry if I was too harsh on you

Motivation!

Shall get through the next 11 days with these in mind:

• Heading to Retreat 2012 without having to complete any essays there
• Having tons of fun eating, soaking in God’s presence and bunking with Melw
• Watching how God moves in the youths’ lives through Prayer Lab
• Eating yummy waffles and ice-cream after this!! 
• Meeting the people I love whom I’ve told “meet you when i’m back from malaysia”
• Getting rid of all these work!!

These 3 essays shall not get me down! *victorious*

My first diamond.

 

And so, my parents decided to be super generous and bought me a cross necklace that costs quite a bomb!

Mum reminded me of my duty as a daughter in supporting my dad and her as she paid for the necklace. HAHA and all of a sudden, the cross seemed heavier. Kidding. It’s not like I won’t support them when I get a job and all. But I think these acts of love from them just make me want to love them more. 

My greatest thanksgiving in 2012 is still how my relationship with my parents have grown deeper. I really thank God for these God-sent parents that He has blessed me with! Opening up to share with my parents has led to many HTHT moments, emotional and spiritual support in days where I felt totally helpless. Indeed, it’s really a blessing to have them rooting for me in all the aspects of my life.

Am reminded of how much Jesus and my parents love me with the cross following me everywhere I go!

This is the #1 reason why I think my 21st is like TMR. I am LOVED.

Mum’s final words before she left for work: Don’t invite so many friends to your party ok. Erbs, this I can only promise to try my best, mum. 

Dear God.

You know how much I’m fighting for You and everything that will make You happy. I pray You turn these relationships around. To really bring You glory. I pray You build them up to be something of solid foundation.

Please honour me and be the lifter of my head. I love you deeeeepppppp.

Your child,

Sheena.

*fidgets*

I think the only thing I absolutely can’t stand about school are the READINGS.

Cannot sit still for more than 10 minutes. Maybe I should just read the conclusion of it all (Y)

 

Control Freak.

Officially survived the first week of school! Strangely energized and didn’t go to school with the why-am-i-in-school feeling on Monday. And I really think it’s by His grace!

Anyhows, it’s Week 1 but have already started on Campaign Management project. And there’s this (only) dood in the group that is ultra efficient! Google docs is up with all sorts of things inside. Group logo, template for the report that’s due in week 10, FAQ about organization, etc.

SERIOUS. Okay it’s a major thanksgiving! I look less control freak with such people HAHA. I’ve met my match, awesum (Y)

PS: Another highlight of the week is that Papa got me my own IPhone 4S! Don’t have to worry about spoiling John’s 3GS anymore WOO \O/

I am so loved and blessed.

Thanksgiving.

Need to constantly thank God amidst all these trials. PS: prompted to do so after reading Esther’s tumblr <3 you dear!

On the top of my mind at close to 3AM, I just want to thank God for..

1. Clear directions on how to move on in the different issues.
2. Covering from spiritual authorities.
3. A holiday-ish 3rd May & 4th May where I got to meet the people I love!!
4. Papa that is willing to get me a new phone!! WOOHOO SOON. \O/
5. John whose phone camera I spoilt yet he is more chillz than me. He is a chillz mouse. Repaired and better return it ASAP before I spoil anything else zzz.
6. Esther and Mightyg who listened to all the verbal diarrhea. Massive amounts of info.

Other random thought at this hour include. Should I exchange that black dress cos it’s a little too short.. The choice and thin line between looking pretty and modest. NOT EASY PLZ. Ok girl struggle. I should just exchange it for another colour and bigger size even if it means that I like it less right? Sighhhh.

Ok, ought to be asleep now. It’s 3AM!

Erbs Farts!?

Introducing my growing teenage brother. -_-

Like a chill mouse.

Was just reflecting and realized that.. my way of loving people is very loud. If you click on my Facebook profile or view my Twitter timeline, it’ll be filled with photos, wall posts (to and from), replies and statuses about the people I love. It’s not difficult to not notice who I love.

But something that God reminded me made a lot of sense. Love.. can be gentle and patient too. It should be. And in all honesty, I really struggle in these aspects.

In this seasons of my friendship with you 2, I am challenged to do so. I believe that God’s love will shine through this quiet form of support, in the gentle words and actions.

It’s time to be a anal chill mouse. (Y)